July182014

101 Reasons Why I Love You

You’re cute. You’re funny. You’re handsome. You’re sweet. You’re amazing. You’re genuine. You’re sexy. You’re astonishing. You’re wise. You text me good morning and good night. You’re shy. You’re fun to be with. You’re understanding. You’re easy going. You have a cute smile. You’re beautiful. You’re hardworking. You’re awesome. You’re open minded. You’re strong. You’re a good listener. You bring me flowers. You’re good with animals. You’re a softie. You’re forgiving. You’re taller than me. You’re stunning. You’re kind. You’re light-tempered. You’re good looking. You’re talkative. You’re adorable.  You’re compassionate. You’re happy. You’re realistic. You’re nice. You stand up for me. You like rap. You’re outstanding. You’re caring. You love me. You’re good with kids. You have an appetite. You have gorgeous eyes. You mess with me. You take me out. You’re honest. You’re new to relationships. You treat me the best. You won’t cheat on me. You’re extraordinary. You’re lovely. You tickle me. You have a big bed. You’re interested in me. You’re unique. You pick me up. You’re responsible. You’re cuddly. You’re affectionate. You’re friendly. You love to kiss me. You make me smile. You’re sincere. You’re thought provoking. You’re a local celebrity. You’re generous. You’re outgoing. You’re patient. You’re just. You’re innovative. You don’t pretend to be someone else. You’re smoking  hot. You’re perfect. You’re brave. You have good intuition. You’re cool. You’re a gentleman. You’re peaceful. You’re seductive. You’re obedient. You’re interesting. You’re warm. You’re exciting. You’re humble. You’re exuberant. You turn me on. You’re loving. You’re respectful. You’re quiet. You’re on track. You’re not condescending. You’re inspirational. You’re conventional. You’re cheerful. You want me in your life. You’re dedicated. You’re contentious. You’re jaw-dropping. You’re intriguing.

You are all mine!

September292013
You told me you loved me more than anyone else.
I knew you were telling the truth, because you are an honest man.
And those 16 years I had you, all of your love I felt.
And I promise I will always do the best that I can.
You helped raise me, and make me the woman I am today.
You taught me so many values, virtues, and all about life.
It was all of a sudden, when you were taken away.
I can’t believe you are gone; where will I go for advice?
I sit here and wonder what they could have done.
It wasn’t fair; I shouldn’t have lost anyone. ♥

You told me you loved me more than anyone else.

I knew you were telling the truth, because you are an honest man.

And those 16 years I had you, all of your love I felt.

And I promise I will always do the best that I can.

You helped raise me, and make me the woman I am today.

You taught me so many values, virtues, and all about life.

It was all of a sudden, when you were taken away.

I can’t believe you are gone; where will I go for advice?

I sit here and wonder what they could have done.

It wasn’t fair; I shouldn’t have lost anyone. ♥

September102013
Silent hearts are crying through deep fault
Deep dark abyss, ceilings enclosing, I must crawl
A quick escape in hope of no other obstacles
Frustration, I rip my hair out of its follicles
 
Creep into pressure of greater pain
Sick and demented, I’m glad you came
The picture goes on, it has no frame
So subjective, you drive me insane
 
Fire flames out of the courage deprived
Be me, you see me, you know I stay alive
Hot kilograms of boiled wine
I never agreed to this, I never signed
 
Copper running through my veins
Hold me close, I don’t want to change
For the greater good, I’ll stay the same
I control the amount of blood it rains
 
Quiet to the point of heartbeats heard
Loud to the point of lessons learned
Fighting the truth of what has occurred
I look in the mirror; I don’t want to be her
 
Won’t come down to let time pass
Can’t fulfill the simplest of tasks
I won’t conform to their level of class

I don’t want to be them, don’t even ask

Silent hearts are crying through deep fault

Deep dark abyss, ceilings enclosing, I must crawl

A quick escape in hope of no other obstacles

Frustration, I rip my hair out of its follicles

 

Creep into pressure of greater pain

Sick and demented, I’m glad you came

The picture goes on, it has no frame

So subjective, you drive me insane

 

Fire flames out of the courage deprived

Be me, you see me, you know I stay alive

Hot kilograms of boiled wine

I never agreed to this, I never signed

 

Copper running through my veins

Hold me close, I don’t want to change

For the greater good, I’ll stay the same

I control the amount of blood it rains

 

Quiet to the point of heartbeats heard

Loud to the point of lessons learned

Fighting the truth of what has occurred

I look in the mirror; I don’t want to be her

 

Won’t come down to let time pass

Can’t fulfill the simplest of tasks

I won’t conform to their level of class

I don’t want to be them, don’t even ask

10PM
Never give up on me, and I will never give up on you.
And we can tell the world to never give up on us two.
Someday we will rule the world, and make things better and great.
But, we are only 16, dumb, and we will just have to wait for that day.
Never take things for granted, for they will disappear.
Except for myself, for you, I will always be here.
And we can tell the world to never give up on us two.
Never give up on me, and I will never give up on you.

Never give up on me, and I will never give up on you.

And we can tell the world to never give up on us two.

Someday we will rule the world, and make things better and great.

But, we are only 16, dumb, and we will just have to wait for that day.

Never take things for granted, for they will disappear.

Except for myself, for you, I will always be here.

And we can tell the world to never give up on us two.

Never give up on me, and I will never give up on you.

September82013
Your Graffiti
I look around at the walls that encircle me.
I see all the paintings that are scribbled on them.
The blood splattered, the abuse drawn, the tears cried.
The words that have been said, the empty promises, every scar made.
The broken mirrors, and all the lies, painted on once clean concrete.
I look at these walls, my walls, and see the mess you made of me.

I see you, inside of me.  

Your Graffiti

I look around at the walls that encircle me.

I see all the paintings that are scribbled on them.

The blood splattered, the abuse drawn, the tears cried.

The words that have been said, the empty promises, every scar made.

The broken mirrors, and all the lies, painted on once clean concrete.

I look at these walls, my walls, and see the mess you made of me.

I see you, inside of me.  

September72013
Beautiful Predilection
 
You are the nice warm sun beating down on my face
Someone no one can replace
I never knew, what it was like before I met you
Now, I’m holding on for dear life
 
I remember us, as little kids
Running around trying to get our kicks
And I don’t know why I am standing here looking like a mess
Begging for you, to never make me your regret
 
You are my beautiful predilection 
 
It’s a mess, but it’s quite incredible
Maybe, it’s that we can be unconventional   
My love’s affection surely is not conditional
I can’t lose you. The feeling is quite incomprehensible
 
Every fight is just a mess of explosions
I only say what I say because my heart gets so broken
Your love is my cure, it’s my hearts ibuprofen
But so bottled inside, intertwine my emotions
 
You kept me from murdering myself
You kept me in your arms, my heart you did melt
Crazy in love you, it’s your warmth I felt
I can’t believe the lucky cards that have been dealt
 
Sparks in this beautiful creation
You truly are a magnificent temptation
You took my poignant and we had a cremation
Now every kiss is a petite celebration
 
In your arms, I can hear your heart beating fast
Priceless wishes of making this forever last 
A kiss on the forehead, please never make me your past
I want to be your present and future, it’s thought to be grasped 
 
Falling asleep with good thoughts of you
I wake up smiling, that’s what you do
Detrimental to myself, that’s their point of views
But to me, you are the one whom I will stick to
 
The best things in life can hurt you the most
That is why I’m crying; it’s that to you I’m so close
My love is so confusing, they can’t diagnose
They have no idea why I doubled my dose
 
You are my beautiful predilection
You are my beautiful predilection
 
I talk about you as if you put the stars in the sky
I fell for you that first moment you looked in my eyes
I don’t think you comprehend; it’s for you I will die
It’s you who keeps me thinking at night
 
You taught me how to love, but never how I could stop Whenever I see you, you put my stomach in knots
Every single criticism, it’s the cynics I fought
But maybe it’s just the fact I don’t care I’m distraught
 
You look in the mirror, we don’t see eye to eye
You put yourself down, and I question you why
Something so obvious, though complements you demise
How is it you that you so greatly despise
 
Our time spent together is never enough
I can’t begin to contemplate the mess we begun
A changed person, the past me looks at myself with disgust
She hates the loving person that I have become
 
Just remember I was here when everyone disappeared
Listen to my words, it’s my soul you do hear
You truly took away all my colossal fear
By no choice of my own, it’s you I adhere    
 
Don’t ever leave my side, never ever in my life
I want to hold you in my arms tonight
 

You are my beautiful predilection

Beautiful Predilection

 

You are the nice warm sun beating down on my face

Someone no one can replace

I never knew, what it was like before I met you

Now, I’m holding on for dear life

 

I remember us, as little kids

Running around trying to get our kicks

And I don’t know why I am standing here looking like a mess

Begging for you, to never make me your regret

 

You are my beautiful predilection

 

It’s a mess, but it’s quite incredible

Maybe, it’s that we can be unconventional   

My love’s affection surely is not conditional

I can’t lose you. The feeling is quite incomprehensible

 

Every fight is just a mess of explosions

I only say what I say because my heart gets so broken

Your love is my cure, it’s my hearts ibuprofen

But so bottled inside, intertwine my emotions

 

You kept me from murdering myself

You kept me in your arms, my heart you did melt

Crazy in love you, it’s your warmth I felt

I can’t believe the lucky cards that have been dealt

 

Sparks in this beautiful creation

You truly are a magnificent temptation

You took my poignant and we had a cremation

Now every kiss is a petite celebration

 

In your arms, I can hear your heart beating fast

Priceless wishes of making this forever last

A kiss on the forehead, please never make me your past

I want to be your present and future, it’s thought to be grasped

 

Falling asleep with good thoughts of you

I wake up smiling, that’s what you do

Detrimental to myself, that’s their point of views

But to me, you are the one whom I will stick to

 

The best things in life can hurt you the most

That is why I’m crying; it’s that to you I’m so close

My love is so confusing, they can’t diagnose

They have no idea why I doubled my dose

 

You are my beautiful predilection

You are my beautiful predilection

 

I talk about you as if you put the stars in the sky

I fell for you that first moment you looked in my eyes

I don’t think you comprehend; it’s for you I will die

It’s you who keeps me thinking at night

 

You taught me how to love, but never how I could stop
Whenever I see you, you put my stomach in knots

Every single criticism, it’s the cynics I fought

But maybe it’s just the fact I don’t care I’m distraught

 

You look in the mirror, we don’t see eye to eye

You put yourself down, and I question you why

Something so obvious, though complements you demise

How is it you that you so greatly despise

 

Our time spent together is never enough

I can’t begin to contemplate the mess we begun

A changed person, the past me looks at myself with disgust

She hates the loving person that I have become

 

Just remember I was here when everyone disappeared

Listen to my words, it’s my soul you do hear

You truly took away all my colossal fear

By no choice of my own, it’s you I adhere    

 

Don’t ever leave my side, never ever in my life

I want to hold you in my arms tonight

 

You are my beautiful predilection

September52013

My best friend right here.

The first picture is the most recent picture of us.

The second corresponds with the story that follows.

I wrote this over 2 years ago:

One day Maleah Whipple and I decided that we were tired of those plain old Wii Games, so we tool a trip to Walmart at 10pm. When we arrived we were amazed at the sight (mostly me). So many games, so little money. Maleah kept trying to remind me about how we were getting Just Dance 2, but I wanted so much more. “Zumba”, “Animal Crossing” “No Mary Ann, Just Dance!” So, we finally got to a Walmart Salesperson and asked her to unlock the case and take our game out. She complied, and took out the glistening case. She held onto the game because my mother wasn’t there to pay for it at that moment. We then ran through the store yelling my mothers name to find her. We heard a loud “yes” and promptly followed the sound to meet up with my mother. She wanted to look a little longer, so we allowed it only to also look around the amazing store. After about ten minutes I saw it. The sparkling small box shouted my name. It was a hair dying kit. A very dark blonde/ light brunette hair dying kit to be exact. I grabbed it, and took it up to my mom. “Mom please, please, please, can we get it?” I said in the most persuasive voice I could use. “Oh why not?” My mother said in a voice that made me feel so contempt. Finally, we went to the electronic center and bought all the items. We took a quick drive back to my house, and when we arrived we went inside with high hopes. We popped in the Just Dance 2 disc into my Wii, and played for awhile. Then, we decided to get the dye out of the box and attempt to dye my hair. Step after step, with shaky hands Maleah dyed my hair. When I washed out the dye, I looked in the mirror and said, “I am such a ginger ><” (: 

1AM
-Bob Marley

Maybe I was wrong. I mean, that is surely how you make me feel. Maybe I was wrong to just love you more than anything. I don’t how you can make a villain out of someone who believed in you, and was there for you, and put you on top of her list, but, I guess you’re right, I was wrong. Sometime late December last year you said, “I love you.” Then, you repeated those words a few times later in January. You would kiss me, touch me, and have sex with me. You told me to wait until a better time, and then you would date me. Not only were you blatantly lying to me, your actions were misleading, and you still have the nerve to say I didn&#8217;t get the hint. Really? Do you seriously expect me to get the hint when you are making out with me and doing other intimate endeavors? You say it doesn&#8217;t matter, but it does. Unless you are an idiot (which I know you’re not), you would know that when someone acts that way towards someone else that is perceived as, well, “I want you”. That is a no brainer. I’m pretty sure you agree with that also. And I am pretty sure you know I didn&#8217;t deserve it.     

-Bob Marley

Maybe I was wrong. I mean, that is surely how you make me feel. Maybe I was wrong to just love you more than anything. I don’t how you can make a villain out of someone who believed in you, and was there for you, and put you on top of her list, but, I guess you’re right, I was wrong. Sometime late December last year you said, “I love you.” Then, you repeated those words a few times later in January. You would kiss me, touch me, and have sex with me. You told me to wait until a better time, and then you would date me. Not only were you blatantly lying to me, your actions were misleading, and you still have the nerve to say I didn’t get the hint. Really? Do you seriously expect me to get the hint when you are making out with me and doing other intimate endeavors? You say it doesn’t matter, but it does. Unless you are an idiot (which I know you’re not), you would know that when someone acts that way towards someone else that is perceived as, well, “I want you”. That is a no brainer. I’m pretty sure you agree with that also. And I am pretty sure you know I didn’t deserve it.     

12AM
-Taylor Swift
According to you I am not good enough. According to you I am inferior. You cut me down, and I feel all alone now. You told me I should disappear from the face of the Earth, and I would contemplate it because I was just so hurt. But I am no longer your little puppy dog that follows you around. Screw you. Yeah, I get it. I am weird and quite strange, but really, I&#8217;d give everything to never ever change. 

-Taylor Swift

According to you I am not good enough. According to you I am inferior. You cut me down, and I feel all alone now. You told me I should disappear from the face of the Earth, and I would contemplate it because I was just so hurt. But I am no longer your little puppy dog that follows you around. Screw you. Yeah, I get it. I am weird and quite strange, but really, I’d give everything to never ever change. 

August292013

Me: “If I ever wanted to fight someone who weighed less than me, I would sit on them, like on their face.”
Alana: “Guys pay for that you know.”
*cracking the fuck up*

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